SF - Starting our Forever

I’ve always been a sucker for romantic proposal stories – from the simple & spontaneous to the elaborately planned.. I always get so kilig hearing my friends tell stories about how their fiancé (or now hubbies) proposed to them… Now I know it’s a gazillion times more kilig if you are the leading lady and star of the story! Hahaha! :-D

My dearest Sam’s proposal was perfect. Simply perfect!! :)

A day before we left for bora, Sam (the gentleman that he is) asked for my mom’s “permission” first.. My sweet mama said that she’s happy with the news. Unfortunately, amang was in the US na, so Sam was not able to talk to him… mama was the one who told amang about Sam’s plans nalang when amang called the next day :-) It was actually so sweet of Sam to ask for my parent’s permission and all.. I’m sure it was nerve racking for him to talk to mama about his plans (not that mama is intimidating ha! But still diba? I’m sure may kaba ang love ko hehe).. my parents truly appreciated my dearest’s gesture. Plus pogi points for him on that! ;-) wehehe

Ofcourse, I didn’t know about all these until after he proposed na. Sam just told me all about the “planning details” after the fact hehehe

Fast forward to Boracay, October 23 around 12 midnight, Sam brought me to the Regency Hotel poolside.. We had the entire garden/pool area to ourselves... the “spot” was nice and perfect under the moonlight.. flowers & plants surrounding the 2 pools.. the mood was set with matching dim lights from the posts, calm silence of the place and cool breeze blowing.. while walking, my dearest pointed at a clock in a small cabin.. It was around 12:10am already. He stopped walking.. then held both my hands.. he looked into my eyes and told me how happy he is that we’re together that day (although it was our 10month into the relationship, it was actually the 1st time we were together to celebrate a month-sary hehe).. *kilig* I said I was super happy too to be with him that time :-) he then wrapped his arms around my waist and said..

“Dear.. I’m so happy to have you in my life.. and I’d like to spend the rest of my life with you.. ”

Sighness!! I’m pretty sure my eyes were twinkling with happiness & kilig as he said that to me! :-) I was dreamily enjoying the moment… *sigh* then for some reason I noticed that only his left arm was around my waist.. his right hand was clenched on his side (like holding/hiding something).. By the time I realized that he was going to propose, Sam was on his knee already holding the perfect diamond ring in his right hand… asking me to marry him!! I hugged him tight.. then I started crying na.. tsktsk Funny that Sam had to ask me again coz I did not answer his question daw. Hahaha! :-) Ofcourse I said….

“Yes! Yes my love! I’d love to spend the rest of my life with you!” :-D

Then he slipped the ring on my finger.. whispers "i love you so much" then gave me the sweetest kiss… *blush* and so then I melted na sa kilig, pure bliss and happiness. hahaha! I couldn’t ask for more.. =D having Sam in my life and being his fiancée. :-) It’s been days since his proposal and I’m still in cloud nine!! ..simply just enjoying every second of being Sam’s future wifey.. :-D

.... oh! and I proposed to Sam too @ cafe juanita over lunch today.. he was well surprised! hahaha and good thing he said yes too! hahaha! :-) yey!! :-)

T-H-A-N-K-S

My biggest T-H-A-N-K-S to everyone who sent their birthday wishes today thru texts, mails, calls & wall posts in fb, fster & multiply!! I had a wonderful birthday dinner @ café juanita full of great food and great friends from acn, zobel & abs… I am really veeery fortunate to be surrounded by so many good friends and to have the sweetest family & bf.. Love yah all!! Hugz!

*prayers of thanks to Him* :-)

6 months.

i was never a believer of long distance relationships.

some people say it takes a loooot of courage to be in one.. that you have to give it tenfold (or even more!) of commitment.. an extreme looot of trust and maturity! and i've also heard friends say -- some from their experience -- that being in a LDR will slowly diminish the love and passion you have for each other because you're physically far apart... that it takes tremendous effort to "connect" with your partner just to bridge expectations.. plus all other difficulties blah blah blah.

... and i truly truuuly agree with everything they said. 100 percent!

but you know what? when i was at crossroads & presented with the thought of being in a long distance relationship with someone i truuuly love? when he asked me? i said yes in a heartbeat! tsktsk (too much for being a "LDR-non-believer"). at that time, i just knew that i'd rather have him in my life (though we'll mostly be far from each other) than none at all. it's painful to mostly be away from him.. but i know it'll hurt more if i go the other way.

besides, in any type of relationship, don't we always need to:
1) be courageus - it is after all always a risk to plunge in a relationship
2) be super duper committed
3) have trust in our partners
4) be mature
5) give the relationship all our might and effort just to understand and accept our partners for who they are

-- and this should be true whether you're far apart or seeing each other everyday!

sooooo, success of a relationship is not all about the distance (now i say that! hehehe). it's all about loving and trusting, being willing to see it through and hurdle obstacles, being committed and holding on to your dear love...

being in a long distance relationship is not an ideal set up (the ultimate goal and setup is , ofcourse, to be together).. it's difficult & painful for couples to be away from each other.. but as long as both are on the same page of what they want for their future, then everything will be just fine :)

bummer...

i really hope amang gets to go home soon... :-\ at least in time for my birthday!?

pffft.

march..
april..
may..
june..

whooooa! haven't been blogging much :( was consumed by work, travelling with friends, going out and "summer cleaning".. teehee! what haaaave i been up to??!? let's see..

work. friday night g.
cleaning the house.

work. friday night g.
zambales.

work. friday night g.
singapore.

work. friday night g.
zambales again. this time, project team building.

work. friday night g.
continue cleaning the house..

work. friday night g.
meet up with SOJ. times two! or was that three? hehe

work. friday night g.
meet up with HS friends.

work. friday night g.
blog. ha! :)

** dinner with family in between (during weekends) hehe :)

trips were fun!! get together-s were always a riot! :) nothing beats hanging out with friends over coffee or... cocktails! ha! hhmmn.. but it would've been doubly great if i had my sam with me during those times.. *sigh* missing him much! :'(

oh well.. life.

02142009.

a rose.. from a bud to full blossom.
like love.. from a spark to enduring passion.
sometimes a lighter or darker red.. just like shades of emotions.

a rose and it's beauty.. like love through eternity.

low E.Q.

i need cable and internet connection. now na!

thousand miles apart.

i miss him. so much! =/

the past weeks melting in kilig moments with his everyday sweetness.. making me laugh and smile with his witty remarks and hirits.. my eyes twinkling everytime he holds my hand.. enjoying every bit of his company over long drives, lunch, dinner & coffees.. good times with friends & bestfriends.. meeting his sweet family.. specially talking & playing with the ever cute, witty and charming juliane! :)

i'm just missing him so much coz i got used to having him around again. it's so hard to think that it will be a (long) while before we'll be together again. *sigh*

no more tears right?

everything will be fine for both of us.

with love.

with prayers.

with His blessings & guidance.

plus, ofcourse...

with AIM & with skype! hehe :)

amangko,

i know that this might not be one of your happier birthdays but were wishing you a good one this year. muuah! we're wishing you continued blessings from our Lord Almighty, happiness and good health! on your birthday, even lola would like for you and our family be happy today as she is now beside our Lord God under His loving grace.

we're missing you so much amangko and we love you so much po! hugs! muaah!

we love you lola..

@ 11am, my mama texted me that our dearest lola has already joined our Almighty. i read mama's text in disbelief with tears slowly rushing down my cheeks. although lola was at the hospital for a few days now, my lola was supposed to be fine.. she was supposed to be getting better... mama and ninang was supposed to check her out of the hospital tomorrow.

crying like a baby, i called my mom to check how she was. although mama tells me she's fine from the other end of the line, i know that she had been crying too. in between mama's sobs, i felt a certain lightness in her voice when she told me that lola died peacefully. she said that Lola was not in pain at all that morning. it was all very peaceful. she said that lola just took her one final breath to embrace the light and join our Almighty. that was all I needed to hear to feel the same lightness my mom was feeling that time. yes, there is pain in our hearts with lola's loss.. but we know that she is happy with where she is now, just beside our Almighty Father.. under His grace.

my dearest lola.. you will always be in our prayers.. you will always be with us, here in our hearts. lola ko, you will be missed dearly. . we love you so much!

HNY 2009! :-D

antaaaagal.

jao. ambagal mo.

12+23 @ 4p

i just stopped journeying along this straight-seemingly-"no-destination"-road. i decided to take a right turn and just jump! :) today i start travelling life's crisscrossing paths with someone holding my hand.

i will let myself fall and slide onto slopes.

i will hang on long walks and climbs.

i will put my heart into this new journey.

we ask You po to guide us through the right direction and walk with us to our destination. Thanks po.

Merry Christmas to you all! :-D

crossroads

i just stepped into an intersection in my life.. i'm actually not surprised im "here". this is something i've been waiting to happen for awhile now. i knew at some point that this day will come and i will be standing in the middle of roads.. now that i'm here, honestly, i don't know what to do. looks like months of "foresight" does not help a wee bit. tsktsk. =P

sigh.

"The road of life can only reveal itself as it is travelled, each turn in the road reveals a surprise.."

i wonder which road will surprise me more? hmmmn.

Lord, help me please.

i wanna play the piano again..

i've just officially become a Yiruma fan!

Yiruma - Maybe
Yiruma - River Flows in You
Yiruma - Kiss the Rain
Yiruma - Love Me
Yiruma - Tears on Love

sighness.

road trip

....baguio here we come!! weeeeeh! :-D

*antagal ni mervin... napa-blog pa tuloy ako. wehehe*

falling again?

my likeness for james (cam gigandet) is snowballing.. i'm feeling this extreme & very intense likeness for him... totally sigh-worthy. if i were to rank, he's slowly moving to be at par with (how i feel for) edward cullen.

bwahahaha.

i've gone bonkers. i know. =P

hhmmn. a bella?

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im dazzled.

i've been up the past nights not sleeping (any) earlier than 2am.. just holding on to that twilight.. saddened everytime i forcibly let go.. sigh. i do so only since i know i need some shut eye if i want to survive the hours of the sun and yet still be awake for my twilight.

i look forward to the night. because only then can i be close to the dazzling character of him resisting (and yet embracing - yes, if that is in anyway possible at the same time) the twisted mystique of her. i am drawn to the enigma and bounded passion that surrounds the experience.

yesterday i was just too stubborn to let the sandman sprinkle his magic sand unto my eyes. i resisted. i stubbornly resisted as i want to end my new moon even when it means meeting with the sunrise, greeting the sun without even getting a fraction of 40 winks. im excited.. im excessively drawn! i can't wait for my eyes to behold the eclipse.

maybe i will take it slow the 4th time. i don't want to see the end of the breaking dawn. not yet. i'm afraid that i just might be extremely saddened to be at that point where all the tears, crooked smiles, passion, bleeds and perfection has reached the finale.

i know im hooked. addicted maybe. i think i've fallen for edward cullen. (wahahaha!)